3month。。。。

很快的
还有一天就过了三个月
不记得就算了。。。^^很高兴认识你。。。


(i suddenly feel like t update blog ardy-.-''''thet mean i will always change my blog skin..)

cancer巨蟹座

巨蟹是心軟的，容易被感動，即使表面看起來總是有一副硬硬的殼，但那殼子底下是一顆柔軟敏感到極至的內心。它們面對一份感情是猶豫再三的，不要說它們懦弱，它們只是明白自己是容易受傷的。他們對感情抱有信仰，相信純真、相信天長地久，所以有時是挑剔的。　　這是一層表面堅硬的殼，其實攻克輕而易舉，因為蟹蟹有一顆柔軟的心。　　蟹蟹戀愛了，這時的它們變的很粘人，很婆媽，因為你是它的中心，它會為你考慮很多，飯吃了嗎？天氣會變了嗎？記得帶傘哦！路上車多，慢點走哦！……..諸如此類！　　蟹蟹是深情而癡情的，愛上一個人會愛的很深，即使明知道沒有結果也很難自拔。這是巨蟹的一種固執，想要得到的東西，往往不會輕易放手。有時，一段沒有結果的戀情會成為蟹蟹的生活重心。這無疑是痛苦的，但又難以自拔。然而，巨蟹的不安全感又在內心大叫著放棄，所以這時的蟹蟹總是在堅持和放棄的巨大矛盾中苦苦煎熬著。學會放棄是蟹蟹的一門功課.　　當然，如果蟹蟹真的決定放棄了，它的堅決會讓所有人吃驚。　　　　要記住：除了你自己，沒有人可以傷害到你　　蟹子是癡情的，但又不善於表達，面對自己心愛的人拘謹、放不開。它們的幽默感此刻變得生澀。　　蟹子是深情的，但又不善於把握，為什麼一次次控制不住自己的情緒，說出明知不該講的話？　　分裂而善於幻想的寄居蟹在說巨蟹之前，先說說幾個一直以來欣賞的幾個偶像，他們都不同，但他們有一個共同點，就是，他們都是巨蟹男。周星馳，王家衛，羅大佑，李宗盛，梁朝偉，張學友……一般在每次排行榜中總是靠末的巨蟹們，看起來並沒有很明顯的個性，但是，他們在藝術方面的直覺和敏銳卻是別人難以匹敵，從這幾個人名裡就不難看出。他們在生活中都是溫文爾雅的，被動的，甚至往往是沉默的，但是在他們的電影，歌曲中，卻展露出令人驚異的才華，讓我們總是不由自主的為之傾倒。當周星馳讓我們笑得淚水橫流的時候，我們也早聽聞其實戲外的他認真嚴肅，不苟言笑，對待朋友和情人都很苛刻；我們知道在戲裡演什麼都神形畢似的影帝梁朝偉同性格南轅北轍的射手劉嘉玲20多年同居，至今都不願結婚，他總是說，其實他的人生就是在戲裡；我們知道張學友出道前曾經是黑社會的小混混，天天宿醉，自暴自棄，也看到張學友成名後依然為了家庭拚命打拼，幾近崩潰……　　這就是巨蟹，其實，最能說明巨蟹特質的，就是－－分裂無論是哪一種蟹，他們都有著分裂的思想。他們渴望安定，也渴望出人頭地，他們內心充滿藝術的靈感，誇張的幻象，但是在現實生活中，他們總是低眉順眼，很難真正展露心中的狂想。所以在藝術的舞台上，他們反而得以施展，讓心中奇異的狂想放大到極致，他們可以將任何一首歌一個角色演繹的入木三分，所有來自於生活中被動的接受，在藝術的殿堂上得到了最好的宣洩，所以巨蟹真的應該屬於舞台。即使沒有好的歌喉沒有好的外形，但是他們有良好的感受力和表現力，他們的性格實際上更像是一隻寄居蟹，在真正自我的生活中，他們常常將自己包裹的很緊，但在詮釋和演繹別人的時候，他們那內心的感情得到了釋放。　　巨蟹座的另一個長處是他們有著哲學的思考力世界因兩股力量相互消長，而水象就是典型的陰柔之力。水象星座的人有一種天生的宇宙觀，巨蟹也是如此，加之他們天生有母愛的情結，所以他們的思考往往帶有著人性化的關懷。所以從事與藝術相關的行業的巨蟹，無論如何都可以算是幸運的巨蟹，因為能夠得以發揮天然的性格所長。但是不是每個巨蟹都有這樣的機會，所以大多數巨蟹都會感到自己的壓抑和痛苦。他們不是沒有渴望，相反他們需求很多，渴望很多，但是他們總是躲在自己的殼裡做著各式各樣的幻夢，只是在想，很少實施。所以如果你看到的總是低眉順眼的巨蟹實際上並不是真正的巨蟹。那只是巨蟹的一個假象。　　永遠無法抹去的自卑巨蟹們其實是自我感覺很好的心高氣傲的一群人，但是卻又難以克服時時刻刻想躲進殼裡的自卑感。他們天生多疑和敏感，碰到困難，就先躲進殼裡，自欺欺人，在夢中編織自我的安全感，而從來沒有想到如何主動將危機轉化為機遇。他們對待困難的消極方式，使他們總很難真正木秀於林，他們總在捕捉他們認為最好的時機，但是那個時機卻總是無法到來，其實世間哪有萬全之策？當蟹蟹們艱苦的自我互博之時，大好時機已經失去。但是要改變這種天生的自卑感確乎很難，蟹蟹們幾乎完全不由自主。　　懷舊是巨蟹們的人生主旋律巨蟹們非常懷舊。他們喜歡舊東西，懷戀舊感情，對家庭有著天然的眷戀。泛黃的相片，褪色的絲帶，塵封的梳妝台……所有一切帶有浪漫情調的舊物，都可以讓他們獨自神傷，黯然追想，他們總是沉浸在過去的回憶裡，永遠記得年少時的孤寂敏感，永遠記得初戀情人，多年後仍然四處找尋初戀情人的消息，慰籍多年來始終保持新鮮的記憶。所以王家衛的電影總喜歡用這樣的句式開頭：多年以後……　　忽冷忽熱患得患失的愛情他們天生悲觀，永遠需要多一點，更多一點的安全感。為什麼他們如此需要安全感，因為他們天生就沒有安全感，所以他們是很容易恐慌的，所以他們也就變得非常的多疑和猜忌。愛上一個巨蟹是要仔細思量的，因為他們會突然忽冷忽熱，突然置之不理，突然惡言相向，但是其實他們並非不愛你，他們有時候是在跟自己嘔氣。他們渴望天天24小時同你粘在一起，他們對愛人有著強烈的佔有慾，恨不得掏心掏肺給你，他們關注你的點點滴滴，小到為你買一支發卡，大到幫你選擇哪路公車……他們都費勁心思，他們時時刻刻每件事都為你考量，但又因為付出的不停增加而變得越來越擔心害怕，會不會得不到對等的愛。所以他們會突然變得冷淡了，也許只因為你一個眼神，他們就覺得你已經不如從前，於是開始無休止的試探，他們說話總是轉彎抹角，但是卻總希望你永遠清晰表態，假設某天你也含糊了一下，那就完了，蟹蟹們立刻條件反射的開始惴想出無數個虛擬場景，在無盡的悲觀中，意淫出種種悲慘場面，然後再見你時，就已經是冷口冷面，甚至說出無比絕情的話語－－所以，你和巨蟹的他們，是要努力去磨合的，給他們足夠的信賴和安全，他們回饋你的，絕對讓你感動的熱淚盈眶。　　虛偽包裝下易感的心實際上巨蟹善於偽裝。他們喜歡笑，無論何時何地，他們常常微笑，也許這笑容有時候讓人欣慰，但有時候卻會讓人感到非常的虛偽。當然巨蟹們也總有自己的小奸小壞，但是他們虛偽的前提卻總是先為了保護自己。他們對自己應得的利益是淄銖必較，有時候會讓人感到他們是不是很小心眼，但是，在朋友聚會等場合上，他們又絕對是豪爽大方，主動搶著付賬的人。所以其實巨蟹是個公私概念很明確的人，他們對該得的絕對毫不客氣，而對待朋友，他們又覺得其實這點錢根本不算什麼。他們是眷戀朋友和家人的，他們基本都有些喜歡酒。而且酒量都還不錯，因為他們眷戀那種賓客相盡歡的氣氛，更眷戀著家的和樂融洽之感。所以巨蟹們喜歡做飯，即使不會做飯也對美食有天然偏愛，他們懂得享受居家生活，所以巨蟹們有個理想婚姻是最快樂的事情。問題是巨蟹們卻常常選擇晚婚或不結婚，因為他們多疑又害怕，他們總是對新幻境充滿懷疑，對新的家庭又嚮往又拒絕，在自我矛盾中，不斷蹉跎了年華。　　自己為自己創造安定感覺巨蟹們總是不安，這是一種不好的感覺，因為如此，許多巨蟹枉然蹉跎，終日鬱鬱。其實，巨蟹們可以嘗試自己為自己創造安定的感覺。找一個家裡人都喜歡的對象，建立一個自己的家，也許巨蟹會發現自己會變得安穩很多。找個摩羯是比較理想的選擇。或者找一個自己的愛好，傾注所有的心血，自己也會變得安定很多。當然蟹蟹們也許會說，你這是站著說話不腰疼啊，要是那麼容易的話，還用得著你說嗎？呵。但是，無論怎樣，當我們自己意識到自己的不安，就該努力去克服他，其實殼外的世界，沒有那麼可怕，這是真的。　　總的說來，巨蟹們很可愛，尤其是在藝術上有成就的那些人，他們創造的都是令人仰止的豐碑，所以巨蟹們不必沒來由自卑，其實你們都很出色。

GET high WHEN ATE A SUPER SPICY HOT DOG!!!

I AM IN A HIGH MODE NOW!!!*0*

JUST now gone pasar malam

i saw HAZEL!!!!xD you look like so shock when saw me

i mayb saw viicky kekeke=p i donno i got wrong a not,but quite cute=]short short dexD

i ate a SUPER LARGE MAGEE GORENG

i ate a SUPER SPICY HOT DOG!!!!!

I LIKE IT MAN!!!!

SPICY LET ME GET HIGH LIKE HELL!!!NO SAD!!!NO THINKING!!LOOK LIKE IN

DRUG XP

I JUST WEARING A SIMPLE UGLY CLOTE OUT

AN ORANGE SINGLET

A LONG BLACK PANT

A BIG BLACK SLIPER

HOLLY UGLY WITH A MESSY HAIR

CAN SAY...

U-G-L-Y~~~~

（hate my nose pimper-.-'''）

if my friend go to this pasar malam with me i sure will let them try that!!!after eat,you teeth will freezing,your tague will pull out and shake..i think 20minute xD!!!!and tak boleh tahan spicy d ppl pls don try,try spicy inough~~SUPER SPICY is for pro ppl eat~~will get a bit pengsan after you eat!!!!!! wow!!!!! single ROCKSSS!!!!!!!! now i damn hell high man!!!!!

haha i still remember i walk this street and sms with you...'why the god threat me unwell'..that wat i ask,your anwser..hehe..i like it~~~~~~~'the god was well for you because he giv me to you',what a sweet mamory!!!!i like that!!!

when i up to car i on radio,a nice song,988,新不了情!!!old version,because.....was 有时想念!!!!!!!!!!!ROCK IT BABY!!!!! WOW!!!

HAPPY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

WHO THE GUY!?

WHAT THE MATTER!?

WHERE THE HELL HE GONE!?

HOW HE GET HIGH LIKE A BULL!?

HE

ATE

A

HOT

DOG

xD

BWAHAHAHA

KEKEKEKEK

HOHOHOHO

是你不爱我

i don't know

我犯了什么错

我一直都以为你

会是陪我走到最后

let me know

我应该怎么做

我们一直都手牵着手

差一步就走到最后

*是你不爱我

是你却分放手

是你让我泪流

背着一堆接口环游整个宇宙

是你不要我

把孤单变得更富有

摊开双手

幸福却由你带走

伤口却丢给我之后*

let me know

别装成听不懂

这对情人变普通朋友

再从朋友变成幕后

*******

你的魔咒

让失眠一直发抖

nonononono

自己往前走

我还能园地不走

********

******chorus

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l8dyOwHvJfA&ytsession=uZqWFnElRfpoXfHFJBebvuBPzS477vEuuXqRA-qD6ciOoTL04Bx_bDOemM3ipgAFP3-kthlIwcTWs4RCNoBfNqrjL13oo0ZPFbOxnqQfJfo3h656TZBt_nRtsOKiCTK4H2rvxB_iG5Zp8VY1IYX5yK6mmz3ykfij77_ablH3Bu6isxf4OftasloNV8oc4d00at017fyWCrBC6o3_B3axzxQCzRcCLQM5R2f7QRtHBhIHVzOZp5TmkLCh1PUxalWDxghPgbwGki0phxNLNiRQy1sUn8HCOBscEAdWNWOp6FfTp74Jjz9alauU5W1hNVi6vgdML6powrHCANc7vYvVY9SjdTsQ3xiuT0jWS-mjMPiyyBVwqi0BQHU4S2YK9chJ

haiz...moody day

yesterday gone midvalley for watchung movie...christmas charo..again..but this time was 3D..1 ticket rm17@@
i feel midvalley..so boring..ntg to play..no freind acoompanny me go also..damn bored...T^T

today a moody day..my pimper pop on nose ardy...so ugly0.o..shit lo..black colour liao...the morning woke go to 1utama for order my sister ticket for back to genting..and i having breakfast in ANW.....a bad place..rootbeer no ice cream-.-'''
after that i breaking group with my family and go find marcus...he was working in 1utama..erm..i think the name was..DAVE deli?..sound a bit wried..DAVE...xD...i find the whole new wing of 1U..damn crazy man i lost0.o...then i go check the computer touch screen map(in 1U gt so many),i search for the DAVE DELIo,o....i check twice-.-...
finaly i walk and walk and walk walk walk*0*...finnaly i found it!!!!!

because still early the DAVE deli less customer,marcus was quite..not busy-.-..and i ask him gt any work to do?her manager anwser 'no more liao lo ah boy',i shock0.o then she say'neh your was the last place',then she gone out for buying...

i chat with marcus awhile and cal him do me a favour,asking for DAVE DELI manager for weekday[sat,sun] work..i quite shock when marcus anwser this question'i no more lover edi..she don wan me'(he on the spot,straight away,and anwser)'find a new one la~~~'(the 'la' was so la~~~~~)...haiz...you think i flower meh..no people want me also..and i was not a flower..i am a crab,0.o...xD...

to zhi wei:i saw your blog。。谢谢你的安慰..T^T会弄到我哭的叻。。。
to sooi:0.o no tiution in perfaction edi?y?...now don hav edi..no ppl wanna chase me

心割伤了

真的好痛

流血了

哈哈xD

lol==lol

in the morning,
listen a song(alarm7.00)on my bed,
phone is on the table ,
the song was a smooth nice song name'don't worry be happy'
i think i can finish this song and woke up do my things,
today andre plan to go damansara club i damn excited want^^
when the song finish i go took up my phone..i saw a scary image..
9:34AM
*0*!!!!!!!
crab!!!!....
i terus call JO..she still laughing..and say no need go la,all sleep late ardy-.-''include our gang leader andre..whole gang..haiz..

hmm..now i relize..put down a person was hard^^..sometime wanna done..but suddenly when you are alone..you will feel..you still loving her..
argh!..don't think too much..find a new target..just work it out..its imposible..she will love me again..

ugrh><

in 1:00-2:00 AM
can't fall in sleep do whatever can stress me up,sit up,pumping,handstand pump all do mor time...but still can't fall in sleep
and after 1hour i think..i finally in my dream..damn..nightmare..i drea someone use druk to make a pao..damn..i kill a rat i saw its heart..whaever inside..ugrh..
crab..
after i woke..watch on mirror i saw my nose gt 2pimper!!!!deng!!nose!!you wanna out out on face i hate pimper on nose!!!shit..and!!!i get a bad new..zhi wei can't tiution in this DEC..no ppl acomppany me..
jus watched a movie..damn disgusting..crank high voltage2..holly crab lik shit-.-''ugrh..

can say today was a happy day de~

hmm,today i whole day put my msn away
because i really a way
~~i go play game with my sister==basara100stage..satu kali hapus semua walao..
starting from 2pm-7pm end
i go back to my computer seat~~i saw a happy image^^so many people find me hahai donno what to say i just like to see many people find me i damn happy~~~hehe

ohh ohh and and a photo comment up until 200++comment in facebook!!i love it man!!!!

another things was my all movie finish download liao~!!!!hurray~~

..am i lucky today?

morning woke up,bath,choose a clote&pants and wear a pair of contex lens
when wearing i recive a msg..--'i sampai jor'..[ya today also gt an appointmentxD hang out with zhi wei in jusco..she call me arive there before11:45..]i see my phone clock..jus 10++ only--..
i arrivce the 11:20..after i meet with her,she TOLD ME RONALD PIG COULDN'T COME..==i alone again!!!!..with a gang who i don known..
our gang gt 6 ppl inclould me..zhi wei &her bf,her sister zhi mei,zhi mei fren,and a guy..who name by dog==....
zhi wei bf older than me,16year old,erm..can..say..he still can tahan la...(in that gang i am the tallest)
today movie was the christmas carol, a nice movie!!!again!!!!whooo!!!haha~~
happy~~
still gt another happy things^^
zhi wei told me her friend say me leng zai leh~~haha

because all those guy were stranger..so i just stick with zhi wei only...i stick dao her bf makan cuka ardy..--then i saw her bf face black blac liao..then me and ah dog walk at the last haha

zhi wei lie me 2 thing..1 she say ronald SURE come,but..haiz..f you ronald i be a so zai today
2she say gt leng lui==..i feel ok only
but anyway now i just relise..jusco..sooooo many good look people..but just can see cannot eat~~haha~~



i really wish i can find a new 1^^..i just now dream dao her-.-haiz..

-.-''i am a dumb ass..

morning had a people woke me up go for sg wang..but i was thinking on my bed..am i really gotta to went there for walk here walk there,and just use that 2 stupid big eyes and watch some 'nice look people'?
i'm think that just a small stuff for cheer me up..but anyway just can see cannot eat..i don do that..so i just lay myself on my bed and shout a sound'i don wanna go!!'..that all...
and then i a whole day stay in home..and alone..

when i am woke..i damn mong cha cha..i donno why my hand will go touch my HTC touch and go on to draf box and send a massage'u really didn't on feel to me?'..i hate myself in a half dream half wake..==its an idiot sigh..and then i get an..anwser..that anwser feel good..but i jus ble ble then i reply a stupid massage said tat i sent wrong!!..crab on me..i really a crab..and after i am clear on my brain..i write a massage..and told her wat i ask..i didn't sent wrong..man..i still loving you..

and the whole day my face was just infront on my computer screen...2:00++i ate my breakfast-.-'''a cup noodle and a tripler chocolate ice cream,man !chocolate was my life!!!!i love it!i like it!everytime i sad,just eat chocolate i donno why..it was a big comfort..hmm i think when eating ice cream crying was a good ideal~~haha i didn't try before~~

after that play DOTA..suck the game man!!!suddenly can't in the game!!!..i am winning the game==..haiz..then just go on msn..chat with viicky..she was a stupid =p..she off9..==i shit lor..facebook ntg to do

..then watch the movie which i download until the whole computer laggy + DElay + smooth+running slow like shit!..anyway no pain no gain,no lag no movie!..watched fast and furior1,2..waiting for the 3 finish download..so what can i do?

blogging lo=.='' i feel the song of my blog..all pity pity..but can say all of those was nice!!i no nid open up my window media player and plus one program lag on my computer..waste my time..

am i a stupid?...when some one loving a wrong person..that the someone will get a lot..no!its too much of hurt!? until you heart will burse!and you will cry!..nw i just realize..many guy let girl broke heart..not just me..i can't done a things that i had no target..i really need something to cover up..i hate MYSELF!USELEES!STUPID!DUMB..

people said that he was lonley..didn't you feel lonley before?..that feel was not tasty..HATE THE FEEL..I HATE EVERY TRUTH!!!..haiz..

stupid day

==haiz..just can said today was a bored and tired..
my sister today graduation...then i just went ther lo....
in that time my phone always ringing..soo many ppl sms me phone me=]...really tired lor in ther==..eye gt water was because of tired..nt because of that kind of speach==

haiz..donno tmr wanna go sg wang a nt..haiz...i saw jj 简简单单tat MV(my music box)..damn pitty de..T.Ti gt the same feel

2012!!!

today went jusco watch 2012 with my ideal high friend~~~
wow the 2012 damn nice de!!!!i lik the air plane part!!!!wow!!!damn cool..some part so pitty,when the son and his dad(on the ship that black man)wow so pitty,wanna cry ardyT.T

nice flim!!!!
hehe
today tat gang..haha all single just one girl was couple~~haha atually i had a nice chat..saw so many nice look people today~~lucky~~~^^

stupid unlucky day..

in the morning stupid phone ringing pick up...it was my mum..CALL ME GO COLLECTING THE DAMN CLOTE SAY RAINING!!!
damn angry and walk down and went outside..wow..what a nice sun shine~o~...*0*DAMN IT!!!..I DON CARE JUS COLLETED...after bath..when down..looking on the table..all was BREAD!!!!!!!shit!!!..
i cook cup noodle againT.T..haiz..
then on 9..chating with andre..he was in dubai now..chating title all about me and some secret..until3...chat with my new fren..haiz saw someone psl msg..let me upset again..i donno what am i thinking..why the god treat me so well..haiz..
rainny day again..haiz..damn moody..the stupid msn donno why always lose connection this day..haiz..unluckyday..

hearing all those old song make me wanna cry..i cry because i love you...haiz..now i saying what also ntg else will happen..it can back to last time that moment..
andre set me a target..that target i will try that..haiz..a bad mood day...

COntEx lenseSS 2nd

woke up at 11
then after bath go try wear my 2nd time contex lens~~..damn hard to put inXp
the right one i finally put on..and left..holly shit..1st time i put i though the lens in ardy..but i saw my eye look lik..no contex lens..then i go touch my left eyes..touch..and touch..suddenly i saw..a small flip..things stick on sink..i take up and see..its a contex len0.o after that i jus..put my hand up and 'ouch!!!!!!!!!!'

what a bad luck today..
haiz..this day i can't fall in sleep donno why..pimper all pok out ardyT.T..haiz..
somtime..i am thinking..why people always look on the pass..even was me...haiz..
how beautiful mamory..i really wish i can went back to my pass..

now i am jus nothings..no any target..i am jus ntg..jus gt a broken heart..i can say that..this hurt was easier than my last time that hurt..but..also was a hurt..
its the heart afraid of breaking?..ya..its pain..i just wan a easy love^^..its tat so hard?..haiz..(i'm nt sad i just type some nonsense only..)

danno wat happen

wow..today damn wried..
jus woke at 2.00.. go down..nothing on the table..tat mean mum didn't bought breadfast to me..then..i saddy..took out a cup noodle..when i took the phone suddenly ring!!..its mum..she ask me ate breakfast??...i say ope..she ask me wanna mCd!!...holly crap~~~i happy lik hell~~and then go on9 again..today damn boring open computer..watch movie..hmm..kungfu cheif...not bad^^..then face book saw a video..A canon partita..damn cool..i gt the conon piece..but some part i don understand--..i comment tat video...after that..gt ppl comment also=]
haha i know a gal,viicky~~~^^frm2hoho,happy
after that my sis wanna use computer..wanna spm still use..

then i go plying violin..start from 7-10wow 3hour==i stay in music room..because the truth and the huurt..i just can release my sadness in violin..i enjoy it..ply whatever song in all my book..grade2,3,4,5..wat cannon,wat夜来香，wat can u feel alone tonight...@@watever i 刷them all!!!!

fuu then ply PS2..an old game..ACE..gt 3 epesious..i bought..but i didn't ply it all..so i start form the 1st..i ply until..hmm..2++am..the i ply until40%~~haha

then i gonna to sleep..

Contact Lens

today morning after my taekwondo training,i went to selayang capital to take me lenS=]
the stuff teached me how to insert it...damn hard de...especially to take it out..at 1st la..
he said i can only wear for 6 hours on the first day.
then when i reached home..i tried to took it out before i bath..i felt that it was easy when take out~~after i shower..i wear back..==right eye was ok..but left eye..i inserted 5 times!!the lens jus can't stick on my eye..after a while finally i inserted..today i wear le 8 hour!!haha

today was the day that i finally got to know the truth..i know everything..thank you for your explaination..i really wish we could go back to the last time..when we were still donno each other..i think the feeling will be so much better than now..i really hate myself..so easy to fall in love,falling for someone..i hate it..i shouldn't love you..i shouldn't...
it was a pass..all i can say is.....i just can't face the truth...i Xhate youXp

haha here thanks to Qing for accompanying me at night..when i can't fall asleep....Thanks.Thanks!!!

ONLINE

welll.....eveyone has their own hobby....my hobby is onlinethis is not my actual hobby until that time when my dad bought us a computerim using a desktop....BIG BIG ONE...hehehehehand one thing....i played so many different kind of online game before...the process is like ....JUST FOR FUN to GOT TO KNOW THE ALL THE SKILL to BORED!!!









PLS KILL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AH!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!T^T
HAIZ....I CAN'T FORGIVE MYSELF!!I CAN'T FACE THE TRUTH!!!

ur wishcome true

finally.....your wish came true,are you happy now? Please don't say anything....i dont wanna hear a single word. Never see me being so serious before? now you saw it....

im back to a person which is no target,like the last time....not the sad Khai Soon but the normal one.God told me a joke that really change my mind.Thank god....for treating me so well.I appreciate it.I don't hate anyone right now cause i dont like it....i dont like the feeling of hating a person or being hated by someone.From now on....we are just friends....im still gonna pick up the phone everytime when u call me.Anyway,thanks for the memories that u gave me...its deep in my heart.

shui jor lor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahahahaXD
[ugrh!!!hate myself was a crab(cancer)..haiz..mayb i won't care you?lol]

sry

haiz..today didn't went club..adre didn't go,qing also didn't go..then i also don wan go ardy..

woke up at 1:00
no mood to play games
turned on the computer
update some songs in my blog...
its just another rainy day...
yesterday..
i donno why i will say that to you..
i know its imposible to do that..
no matter what i do..
u always gonna reject....
the 1st song is for you..

when i can put it all down?:)
i donno..
hehee..now i know!!!!!
damn.!!!
...PG...
hate u mor!!

sry

珍惜

遇到你真爱的人时，要努力争取和他相处下去，因为当他离开时，一切都来不及了。。

遇到可相信的朋友时，要好好和他相处，因为在人的一生中，可遇到的知己真的是不易。。

遇到人生中的贵人时，要记得好好感激，因为他是你人生的转折点。。

遇到曾经爱过你的人时，记得微笑向他感激，因为他是让你更懂爱的人。。

遇到曾经恨过的人时，要微笑向他打招呼，因为他让你更加坚强。。

遇到偷偷喜欢的人时，要祝他幸福唷！因为你喜欢他时，不是希望他幸福快乐吗？

遇到匆匆离开你人生的人时，要谢谢他走过你的人生，因为它是你精彩回忆的一部分。。

遇到曾经和你有误会的人时，要趁现在解清误会，因为你可能只有一次机会解释清楚。。

遇到现在和你相伴一生的人时，要百分百感谢他爱你，因为你们现在都得到幸福真爱。。

很多事都是失去后才来珍惜
珍惜眼前的一切
有些机会
可能只有一次
失去了
也无法挽回
你一天坚持
机会重会有一天会出现。。

haha rainny day><

just now went damansara club with jo,andre,qing and a new guy i knew..kallen if im not wrong..lol

qing is the 1st arrived,and im the 2nd one~we chat while waiting for the others--tat two people..late nie..
jo cut her hair ardy!!!!!!!different edi..no cut leng lui,cut edi leng lui alsoXD
after we change swimming trunk we staright went to swim,show my fat body out!!!!53kg!!!
damn u andre make everyone laugh the whole day !what ful package!!!what air port!!what kutu==..she wher gt air port jekss-.-'''
after swim we went to MCD!!and then laugh again,eat also laugh..hard to eat leh--
then went to andre house..see he plying drum...then i call mum,mum say that she reached MCD ardy..shit lo..tat time rain also..then i borrow andre's umbrella and walked..to school..damn tried..swt like rain..scare i get fever..

went home..looked at the sky from my room...its raining..tranquil and peaceful..this kind of raiy day..how beautiful..like my mood..haiz..

why?

i hate myself to be like this...
i hate myself to be honest...
i hate myself to love her...
i hate myself donno how to make a choice..
(Secondhand Serenade - Pretend )
It seems all of these words couldn't be further from the truth
How did I get here
What did I do
Your eyes, telling me lies
And making me find myself
While you have your agenda, a life to pursue
So pleaseLet me be free from youAnd please, let me be free
I can face the truthI'm blind to all of your colors
That used to be rainbow then
My eyes, where did the go to
Why disappearIt's hard to be all alone
I never got through your disguise
I guess I'll just go, and face all my fear
So please
Let me be free from you
And please, let me be freeI can face the truth
Put down your worldJust for one night
Pick me again
So pleaseLet me be free from you
And please, let me be free
I can face the truth

...i hate myself...to love you...

妳

认识了你，
梦里时常都会出现你的脸，
想到第一次你在我梦里出现时，
起床心情也会好一些。

我真的有点不明白，
机会给了很多次，
但你只站在原地一动也不动，
的望着机会消失。

难道只能做个好友？

等待你的时间，
比休息的时间还长..
真的有点累
我也老了0.o~~XD

如果..
你能把你的机会，
给我的话我一定会接受..
但真的是太长了..
我需要休息..

可能..

我心里还有你..

选择，

我只给你选，

我尊敬女生的选择..

如果

你的位子

需要人做的话

.....

我定下来了哦!!!

你还欠我两次乜!!

=)

我会记得，
你帮我察嘴，，
你调皮的撞我，
我第一次捏你的那圆脸，
.....

在戏院里，
握着你的小手，
轻轻的，
在你耳边说

我

爱

你

.

.

.

I like this days!!

in 7 nov midnight 3:00..i had a nightmare..and the nightmare woke me up..==then i sleep again..in this sleep i had 3 dream..but i just forget all..the nightmare i also forget..what nightmare can woke me up!?==

after i woke ofcause today saturday went for tae-kwon-do haha thanks for the guys who cheer me up~~after tae kwon do my and 3sister 1mum and 1 is my elder sister collage korean freind go to selayang.

selayang new open a 'station1' cafe shop,got a pomotion set,RM12.90 a chicken chop with salet,jagung and a potato,a cup of ice cream,a drinks and a soup..when i started to eat i ate the salet first the jagung let my sister eat..after that i starting to eat the chicken chop..i eat eat eat eat eat..until the chop still left 1/4..suddenly..i saw a small piece of..bleeding meat..shining shining de@@..i call the waitress!!!..she saw..shock..and say'nevermind i change a new to you'..after a few minute..a guy..put a plate of dishes on my front..i was shock!!damn!!a whole set same as i ate be4!!jagung!salet!and the potato..the chop..was 4/4!!T.Tdonno call lucky or unluck

after i ate tat 1 and 3/4 chop..i look at the mirror..i fat ardy==..

after lunch we go to selayang capital,my elder sister need buy a new spec..==donno she doing what oon her old spec..then i told my mum i wanna try try contex lens,my mum say 'OK'!!fuuyoo!!i shock dao!!

after check my power,then i went to a room with a guys..he let me try 5 big brand of contex lens..mean 5 diffrent size..after i try..4 of them after wear..look lik gt thing wanna came out from my eyes..the 1..still ok..(when he help me put inside..wow damn hard..call me look up look down and close eyes..pain nie)

after trying the guys laugh and say'your eyes size hard to find a suitable of contex lens',he explain to me'normally ppl eyes curve was size 8.5-8.9 but your eyes was curve size 8.2,so that if the size too large the contex lens can't stick with your cornea'..i just repeat a 'owh~~~'at the last.. the guys say he giv me 8.5 size~

oh ya!!i jus watched MJ show!!!damn nice i like the dancer!!!i like MJ voice!!wow!!this is it!!!!|GoD bleSs yoU!man in the mirroR!!wow!!can't stop loving you!!sing with a girl!!

haha when we home on the way we saw a girl sambil drive sambil make up!!lol!!damn funny open the mirror!!at the car bac!!sticked a sticker...P!! haha

today not a bad day><..

Today!

A bad begining,let my father woke up to fix the fax machine..but faild
finish taking a pao for breakfast..mum call me vacuum living room and dinner room--tried
then on9 lurr
ytd night i jus knew tat my fren jin sern wanna leave malaysia and study in singapora..i was shock,tmr he will on the plane..wan find him out also no ideal..i will miss you dude!!

the whole evening on9 facebook update my blog,blog head picture not too big then too small..i give up for the head picture...wan find the song but can't find it..==haiz

man:jacky finally on9 chat with him..haiz..
chat with qing,nt bad she wanna plan go to club crazyXD ROCK man!!

on facebook also ntg to do,ahar!!finally i found things to do,i open my old 4G pen drive,inside gt so many photo lol...i saw myself..wow change alot!! and saw some good mamory miss it!!!haha
oh ya i also heard some old song!!in this pen drive gt 1.74G of song mayb 500++,old song english song also,an old song i hear'

没那种命'by jordan chan

爱情这东西 没道理的
有人很抢手 有人没资格
路是人走的 我害怕什么
大不了 别爱了
她像个天仙 她太美了
我那么平凡 我开不了口
心里面晓得 追她的结果
幸运的 不是我
我没那种命呀 她没道理爱上我
英雄和美人哪 是一国的
只怪爱人太少了 对手太好了
劝自己别傻了以前甭提了 以后非加油不可
我没那种命呀
轮也不轮到我 爱情老是缺货
我争什么 时间越来越少了
越来越老了我剩下一个梦 她走过来说
其实我错了她爱我

this old!!!wow i also gt heard'越吻越伤心'and'七友'
i damn like it!!

=)i will try to put down you..the door will closed soon..
time is limit^^
we are just the friend=]

from now i won't like any person..i just wait for my moment><
haha w8 ppl kao me XP!!lolhaha
jj!!!how was it?

A Storry some question(better read its~~~)

A Heart,
Was a CAge.
One day,
she hold a key,
come infront of his cage,
open the lock and walk in.
The cage was lock,
the key was dissapear,
she tie herself with a red line,
she stay in his cage,
the cage was hers.

pass through a few sweet moment,
suddenly she cut the red line..
sadly..
break through the cage,
the cage broken..
the reason..
she cover herself..

Now days the cage was recovered..
the door of cage was slowly closing..
she stand between the cage one step..
but she was watching the door closing..

when the door closed,
its will lock by a new lock,
the key will find it's new owner..

he say:remember what i told you?
'my cage is yours,take care of my cage'..
the time will become shorter and shorter..
u make the choice,
if the door loocked..
i will keep the broken pieces of the lock as our mamory(he give her a smile)=]

sometimes..
chance is yours
you still got one step
but you afraid to step the one step,
after the lock locked..
think by yourself
you will lost somethings..
or
..you will get somethings?


QUESTION
1.who agree the girl walk a step?why?
2.who disagree the girl walk a step?why?

A HAppY Day~~~celebrate jolene brithday party

wow wat a nice day~~
today was the day to celebrate jolene(can call her my..younger sister lar..kAi MuI but wried..because she mature than me:])
in the morning waiting someone morning call me..when i am in half sleep half wake..i heard so many time'exscue me darling i had a massage for you'(my massagetone)..and then i jus nothong and continew my dream..after a few minute>

dude you got a nice voice,i lose man!!
and i forgot the arrange la me and andre gt sang~~after that our meal came..beef0.o nie~~!!!meal came,man also came.
moon,kok chun,qi yao,three man walk in to the room,when moon in the room he jus grap andre mic and say 'i wan sing'haha
so many photo we took in there

me joyce and angeline

me and qing,u change i will miss you^^

the half of group^^

can say a family joyce(my S.sis),jolene(2nd S.sis),angeline(L.sis),andre(angeline dady),qing(andre doughter also~~)i smile like..haha sot liaopeace in family!!!

2body gruad!!bro and dad!!

laughing when taking photo

0.o hoi!!!

took without spec

VL saw tis pic sure BOOm!me0.o ahh..me look lik so yamT.T

nah moon zai!!angeline!!

whole group pic too by the staff in red box 2nd de a bit mong cha cha

count by left andre,wan ling,angeline,joyce,me,qing,jolene,jacky alisa(the couple),moon,qi yao

didn't you realize som1 missing?0.oya is kok chun he don wan take donno why when we ar taking photo he still singing--

alone de pic they took de~~so fake hor my smile

the las crazy sot sot high hand two mic the sicssor hand was qing wan wan cut my head leh

i still some picture with jacky later upload^^

haha after redbox we went to cinema..confuse for watching what show..sadly qing and angeline and wan ling they need to bacT^T..they gone

so we still in confuse,want this no this==finaly we made a choide[white out]..

when the moment we waiting for the time girl go shopping guys go snooker..me and jacky a table..atually we both donno rulse of snooker..andre b sifu teach us..but we still donno haha..we play pool using line and colour ball..quite hard understand==..finally jacky win..he say he donno ply but..he was a liar!!!*o*pro!!

after guy finish,guys wait girls up to cinema..the couple..haiz..they perform a..special 'entertaiment'o00o==o00o..kissing center gt a porkcorn..owh..damn hurt me--you know..they so open..haiz..

the show was..18PL..so..geli..owh..will gt nightmare today..its was a bored movie..

after the movie we bac..morning facth us to the curve was jo mum,facth us bac was jo aunty..haha so cute,she always forgeten something..haha in the car she ask me wher i live..i jus say but my english was broken english..T^Tsay liao so paiseh..

she facth me to MCD i having my dinner at ther..alone..mc chicken large..i sitting at there sms with angeline and joyce and jolene..wait so long time to wait my mum finish dinner and come from selayang..i refule my large coke..donno why i so happy with a smile face on the staf the staf smile back me..and he refule the whole large cola..oh..i drank it..my stomach full of cola ..ohh..

went bac home..take a bath..on9 awhile and go slp..donno why can't slp..so msg the one..the one..who nid to morning call me..she though i call her..she also wait my call..can say this call was..ok la..haiz..i donno when the moment will come..want a ppl love me..was a hard things..haiz..donno la..she just want single..she just want be a friend..

then i really can't fall in slp..watch pucca!!in youtube(damn cute and funnny!!) and blogging

tat the all today happy^^

A WriEd..day..

..i saw your blog..but i really don understand the meaning..haiz..
~i like today d violin class!!!!alwsome!!play duet with teacher i like the song,i lik the sound~~ply the snake dance wow,perfect!!
another things was..a girl..always just can be a friend..became a cold ice cube..haiz..really wish she can melt><
hehe and the night i on9 haha i msn with a girl who i know in school but less talking><
ask me so many question leh..

普通朋友

等待

我随时随地在等待
做你感情上的依赖
我没有任何的疑问
这是爱
我猜你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败
从天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈
我愿意改变(what can i do?)
重新再来一遍(just give me change)
我无法只是普通朋友
感情已那么深叫我怎么能收手
但你说i
only want to be your friend
做个朋友
我在你心中只是just a friend
不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
so i
我不能只是be your friend
i just can't be your friend

我不能做你的朋友不能只是做普通朋友
end**

atually i quite like this song..this song is for you^^its the same i wan to telling you