random

today still moody about somethings...
haiz...i donno what i gonna do..continue or give up?..
angeline cal me continue chase the girl.....i think i need sometime and think
cause my every choice..i always get the worst anwser..
who can help me...T.Ti hate myself ...

i suddenly like to edit my picture leh haha!!!

我失败了..我不爱了..

我讨厌去做个选择..
我讨厌在半睡半醒的状态下做了些不该做的事..
昨天我蒙查查..睡前寄了封对我来说很危险的信息给她..
今天的答案..只是个空蛋..也就是说..给拒绝了吧..
很少主动的我..就将..一枪给壁挂了..
我放弃了..我守够了!!!？爱太痛了..我失败了..我不爱了..我累了..够了

..random stuff...

these day everytime i blogging i sure will talking about the school...

i suddenly feel school live was boring...i donno why...cause teacher teaching no joke too boring...or i always thinking some..sad things?...i think so...i donno why everytime i broke...i sure will always thinking about her...until i found a new gf...then i will slowly put her down and let me put in freedom...i missing you..that ply girl...haiz..i was insanse

looking through the window,looking the people who walking downstair i feel i wanna jump down...aren't the 3rd floor too short?even jump down i think i also wont die...haiz...i feel i love a person...but..if i sucess..i think..i will...make her study getting worst..cause she was..too pure..and..me this kind of lazy ugly was not suiteble to these girl..today i just cal myself don too close wiith her...don too loving her...don..don..don..but..she was my friend...haiz..then i told marcus...i cant belive that...he told me...haiz..i donno what to do...i donno..i like her..but i confuse in loving a person...i scare to love..i scare to let person hurt...what should i do?...i like her...i like..





these day i just realize...before that 1and 1/2 ...was the girl 'kao' me first..then i just..ehem..i FEEL I WAS USELESS!!!!i feel that!!!!i let people kao i let people fly!!!!damnit now i got a girl i like but i just not dare to chase her..not,not dare..it was..i don have the face,the hardworking smart brain..i was...just not suitable for her...cut it off man!i hate to make a choice...i hate it..cause last time that stupid choosen...now both also don have!one broke.one now tiution math and sejarah with me but i just donno why i hate her!she don pick up person phone!!!0.o..that mean both also faild...haiz i hate make choice!!!!!!!!!argh!!!!!~!!!!!who can save me...just gt two person who know who i like..one was the stupid marcus another one was the shu LyXX..i just can tell her what my problem...haiz...

who can save me...T^T..

road run

today was the road run day~haha i get 51~yennie also get 51!!!i damn shock@@....after i give the number to the people who take down my name ,i went for play basketball~~haha VL,VK,VF one team,and me and 2 fei fei 1 team~haha i 1 ppl they 3 cant get my ball~~..but final they win..cause VF say rules..cant dunk the ball..==then i don dunk lo..my shooting so suck de leh...the game end...i walk back to dewan terbuka,i saw jj then i jus wann to chuan him top rock..suddenly my leg cram!!!!...yor pain leh...

perfaction whole role no electric

today when i was studying from mr shiva sejarah he was talking a bout firaun,eijip things,what mummy la whatever he just joke many^^i damn enjoy his story~but suddenly the whole view became balck!!!@@holly shit...then the whole clss room ppl all scream wooohhoooo!!!mr shiva still can joke~we all open the window the sky was starting thunder strom!wow but no rain so beautiful...
then the staff took 2 big touch light to mr shiva,then he continue his teaching but...he SKIP MANY STORY!!!arh!!!piramid leh!!!i wan heard eijip story leh...haiz

the mirror..

school
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today the school was quite normal...just today!...cause of the basket ball match let me high until ki xiao...stupid qi yao ,zhi yen and shaun..make joke..laugh until my stomach pain XD,in class i gt do homework today,no sleep in the class and draw many picture on my table,some character that i imagine it gt title:i wanna to be rich,i want to be a genious,i want a victory,i want to be luck..last want the 1st i drew..on last week..my favourite...i want a love..i like this picture...very much....and the side of my table gt 4 head that i simply draw haha...haiz..

mirror
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after school..back home ...walk in to my toilet..saw the mirror..i feel i..had been old..and i ugly than last time..i feel my life was getting down and down and down..when can i get what i want?..when can i get a thing to push me up to study...no people will care me also...i feel i got many negative things was happen on me......i want a love..i want a care..i need a person..who like me...who care me...but..in the same time i also love her..
aiya..i donno what am i typing about...erm oh ya..i gt to say somethings...angeline...if i talking vL bad things u will getting hurt..that i just can say sorry to you..but i won't forgive that the person who said me sissy...and dog...i will try to go your birthday part...

haiz...

haha finaly i can play dota liao!!!!yesterday play with ah lai 3 game@@nice!!!
these day i just donno why i just feel like no mood to study and so easy lapar...i had been 2days sleep in class...even pn wong clss..mayb i too sleepy even i 100% hearing teacher said what but my brain just can't catch up...pls let me catch up la
T.T

.haiz...i had been bankrup ardy..haiz..

bankrup..stay in home

today..the whole family nt in home i just stay here alone..cause i had no money to went sg wang..yesterday i watched spy next door ,the girl damn cute!!!!!haha i like the little girl!!!hehe but..jackie chan was older than older..haiz..he was a quite good fighting acter...

i feel this year i got a lot of things will happen..wish that is a good things that will happen...but anyway..i stil don wanna to change my tiution centerT.T....plase god blessed me...T^Tpls!!!!

i wan a colourfull life..

haiz..yesterday i had a bad arguement again..with my mum..this time i was tired and sick==..i really feel i will die if i was argue like that..my mum want me change tiution center very much..haiz
but i like there very much...yesterday..i just really feel tired and moody..donno why sunddenly become sad..i sang 1hour and 10minute 'zap pa lang' song...i sang until my pitch get very high..new record...and i looking at the picture that i had been awhile didn't sms with her..even i sms her she also won't reply me..haiz..i get water on my eyes..i close my room light...the whole rooms was dark ..just the small dim light from my phone..and my phone was playing song..i sat on my chair..i sing loudly..even my sister call me i also just shout leave me alone..
i donno why the hell..why i want add math?..why i feel perdagangan was the subject that let me die in bored mode..haiz..no target..no way to walk...

i wanna someone love me~..who i am?..i wanna some one who need me...that so bad?...
.i wanna breakup madness..

Haha i feel i geting crazy in frm4..

yer!!!!!
so many people change school!!!!
==today our class gt a girl wanna change to maluri liao..
i think she finish her borang tat kind of things..i saw her when i was frm1 ..but until now i just relize..she was cute0.o!!damn!!!look like..the 'stupid person'who tiution with me last time..
==but anyway..its a miss..target missT^T..nevermind..i can feel what she feel in this school..
stupid class..no add math..i wan my school and class had many colour..but now look like my school life was colourless..i like math..i like science..perdanganag just a damn boring subject..oh ya!talk about today,pn siti subaidah teach me morden math..but i feel she still blur blur in math..==today math class..she gave many thoose question from text book..all is easy from me..but..haha..i got 1 donno how to do then i go ask..2(4x10five)x5(8x10negative eight) 10 five was bisede the ten had a small 5...==damn it!!..she teach me cube the 2(4x10five)..she was just insane==!!!!!!!then i went back my seat and just laugh in my mind..pn siti leh!no joke man!!..then i use my way solve it..i find the anwser was correct..i can't belive the chapter that i didn't learn from tiution..i can use many way to solve it..i like math..but the teacher who teach me..haha...MR BEN was better==....

argh colour less in my school life ..nothing was intresting in my study except math and science==..wan change to pure science but scare hard..haiz i donno what to do ..the xin ru change school..choon shen also..haiz..all transfer....

i can't..cause of transpot..haiz..now no love also like this--..my life so shit lor..

actually..am i realy need a target for recover my last time broke..i feel..i still....haiz..if i have no doing anythings i like..i sure will become EMO...hair short liao..no confident at all..

..i really felt..sick and tired..==''..

the first week of the school day..1st i was suffering about my class that i don have add math..now the add math class was full then i have no idea to give up,but i think i will study add math from mr.BEN in tiution...just think..
but now i was suffering about my time and my transpot driver..my mum..these day i was always argue with my mum about the tiution center problem..thurday i was sick and tired to argue with her..from yesterday until now i was sick and tired to talk to her..no talk= no argue..this was the choice i made..

acttually yesterday i can't belive i will scold my mum..cause she saying something let me burn..she said'(bla,bla,bla)...now the aunty say arh,why ur son don wanna go to other tiution center for tiution was that because you had a girlfriend in the tiution center!!! '
at the first i was truely be quite for don wanna anwser anythings for settle..but when i heard this sentence through her mouth..i starting burn..i donno why..i just angry..about some people who simply say me had a gf..the i just scold out..i think it was a very rude sentences..'WHO THE FUCKER SAID THAT I HAD A GF IN THE TIUTION WHO WAS THAT!!(..fucking asshole[small scold] har!!!)'then my mum just say you no need to know who was that..and be quite..then i say'if i catch out who was the fucking aunty saying that i will slap her mouth until she die!(seriously i will kill that aunty no matter who was her how good she was..)'..then my mum just be quite..

i just donno why i damn moody when i think back the sentese she said..mayb the person who broke me was in that tiution but now don hav or..i don have any gf ..then i angry about the sentence..i donno..from that time..that moment..that second..i starting to hate my mum and don wanna talk with her anymore..1 good for my mood and health 2 good for my mouth,waste my sliva to argue with her 3 good for my asopagus later i broke it cannot sing=='''

i really just wanna tiution in selayang perfaction tiution center..i tiution there 3years..and i had alot of friend there..and i just wanna follow thoose teacher who i think was good..cause frm4 was a new start..i wanna be hard working in this year to solve and improve back my basic for spm..i wanna get a good result that why i wanna choose teacher..for my morden math was damn important to me..i like math..science also...
..MR ben..he was the teacher who teach me in frm1,2&3..because of him i starting love my math even my brain was stuck i also like to do my math..he gt a sentense..'USE CALCULATOR WAS STUPID!' haha i like it! really use calculator will let the brain become move slow,just press press press then get the anwser,how..boring?..i just follow this teacehr for my math..i try to accept another teacehr like ..mr low..and a teacher..i donno his name but he look like doremon..this two teacher ..i gt study with them be4 ..but i just feel..nt so good..that time i also change to mr ben class..this time..haiz..
my mum wanna me change to the other center..1st was kepong perfaction(HQ)center..there was the same teacher but..no friend in the kepong center..the most important is mr BEN was no teaching morden math in kp..if gt..i will give up my selayang friend and chaneg to there tiution..but..haiz...no matter how many time i tell my mum she also no idea also wan me to change..or else change other tiution like kasturi ,cekap or super..but i also don wan..i saw kasturi note be4..its..nt clear..and cekap ronald tiution there be4 he say it was sucks!!!...and super..i tiution perfaction 3 years edi,thoose teacher teaching me all using english suddenly go super all change to chinese..i surely will feel it was so k yeng...haiz..i donno what i going to do now..

just being silents..this time i wan study also can't get any help..study was nothing wrong ok...just the transpots..and the driver only..if i alone live in my old house how good..can walk to perfaction..and study in what ideal high or kp ulu..but its imposible my mum will let me alone in here..haiz..god this time also don wanna to save me..

argh!!!!

DAMNIT!!!!!!!!!!!
STUPID SCHOOL!!!!!!
HOW COME NO SUB SCIENCE CLASS!!!!!
HOW COME NOT BOTH ACCOUNT CLASS ALSO GOT ADD MATH!!!!!!
HOW COME I WILL KENA NO ADD MATH D CLASS!!!!!!
WHEN I HEARD I WAS IN ACCOUNT CLASS I WAS HAPPY UNTIL I CAN FLY!!!
WHEN I CHAT WITH JO THEN IN THAT I KNOW THAT..DAMN IT OUR CLASS DON HAVE ADD MATH!!!THEN I GO SURE IT ASK PN AZINAH..I DIE LO!!!REALLY DON HAVE ADD MATH!!!NO MATH=SIEN!!!SHIT LA!!!!I STRAIGHT AWAY DROP UNTIL EMO MODE!!!!!
IF OUR SCHOOL GT 1 SCINCE 2 SUB SCINCE 2 ACCOUNT GT ADD MATH 2 ART..HOW GOOD WAS IT!!!

云顶回来

欲如的房间～

不知什么原因，

酒店的地上特别好睡但..

我还是睡不好..

可能是不习惯2010吧..

2009年实在太多事发生了

一下子叫就一年了..

就算我怎么信息你你还是没回我..死pXi w3n..

算了8:00多本想morning call 欲如的

但又怕太早所以就勉强的避上眼睛..

脑海中实在太多画面了..

在我收拾房间的时候，看见saminor的note book..

尾页都是我们那些密密麻麻的小字..唉..你以忘了(死XX)

我还收到些frm1,frm2的小纸条..

撑老师不注意就将纸条飞过对面桌的...(初恋)

突然铃声..打断了我的回忆..

原来裕如早就起来的..

无所谓这些都是过去是了，就算再怎么回忆也没用

人终是该往前走，往后看看也走不回去..

收拾心情冲个热水澡，换上新衣，收个背包，吃了杯面

就下我们约好的地点,starbuck

我到了刚好九点~他还需些时间才能下来

我就买杯热巧克力来喝咯～然后找个露天位置坐了下来～

我又在胡思乱想了..恨死自己的脑袋就是装买那些旧东西..

他们到了，‘他们’？？对他们..欲如和她姐姐～

因为我的那杯热超甜巧克力加奶还没喝完～

就在那里聊聊天咯～原来她姐姐读frm6~

喝完了我的那杯甜巧克力

就立刻去拍照咯~

我觉得自己很丑哦

不写了..

病了..